Springtime

The weather here in Phoenix is totally amazing right now! It's sunny and breezy and lovely, although slightly dusty. I've finally purchased (with my tax refund, thank you IRS) a lovely new patio furniture set from IKEA (where, if you know me well, I get ALL of my furniture). Ilse and I have been enjoying lunch and dinner out there almost every night, though not breakfast because it's still a little chilly - 50 degrees. My family in Minnesota/Wisconsin would snort at my wimpiness, but alas I am acclimated.


I do feel slightly selfish because as soon as the kids are down for a nap, I abandon all responsibility (paying bills, cleaning, etc etc) to dash outside and hang out. By myself. It's fabulous. The best part is that David will be here in a few days, and we can all be outside together and do nothing.

I was telling my mother Sandy today that it feels so good to be where we are now. Reading over this blog can be painful for me when I realize all the incredible ups and downs this little family has experienced in the last 3+ years. So it's important for me to share with my THREE readers how much my life has changed, for the better. My day to day life is pretty much the same as it always has been, but the one thing missing, the enormous, stifling weight of being completely and utterly out of money without a good job, makes all the difference. Where I felt held down and trapped, I now feel endless possibility. And the best part is that it doesn't matter what we do or where we end up, it's going to be an exciting adventure!

The only good thing about going through difficult times, and making it, is that I'm so much more confident now about what I can handle, because, even though I say it myself, I can probably handle anything now. :)

the car my son Zeke was born in (10/4/11)

homeostasis

I don't usually blog in my own blog, but I feel like writing. Plus a friend suggested to me the other day that I should start one. Little did she know that I maintain a THRIVING blog with TWO followers. So anyway here I am.

My life is only now sort of stable - My son was born, Ilse is growing up, my dogs are getting old and fat, my cat goes outside at night now, and David is doing well in his new job - over the road trucking. It's really hard to have him gone all the time, but we're working for a better tomorrow, today! and so we just deal with it. I've dropped a lot of the meaningless things I used to do to make other people happy - like serving on the Theology and Worship Committee for the Grand Canyon Presbytery, but am quickly acquiring new meaningless things to do to make other people happy.

I've decided just now to clean the house and kick my own ass in gear to do the things I really enjoy: creating beautiful things for myself and my family, ie sewing, crocheting, knitting, and cooking. Well, not really that last one. I threw that in to make myself sound more interesting and well-rounded. I don't ONLY want to be a crazy craft lady...

At any rate, my life is slowly becoming more even and predictably-scheduled, but I have that unsettled feeling one gets when a big life change is about to happen. I don't know what it is yet, but it's probably well on it's way.